my thoughts .now.

i’m scared. i’m worried. i’m curious.

i dont feel pregnant. i just feel… fat.

i eat a lot. i’m hungry all the times.

apart from that, i’m not having dizziness, nausea, mood swings sometimes. on and off breast tenderness. no stomach cramp. but i’m having white discharge on daily basis, which i already asked Dr.K about it. she said its normal, but nothing to be worried of. as long as the discharge is not brown in clour and smells.

my conversation with my sister had really frightened me more. she insisted me to go for a specialist check-up just to make sure that i’m pregnant, since i’m not having all the classical symptoms of a pregnant laydee..

then i read the pregnancy book about not feeling the pregnancy. here’s the book says: once the feotus stops growing, all the symptoms of pregnancy will eventually stops.

i’m scared.

i dont even feel my breast sore anymore. thats the most important sign to tell that i’m pregnant, still.

i dont feel i’m pregnant.. and i’m scared & worried.

so today, i beg hubby to bring me to specialist tomorrow. not on thursday as planned earlier. i cant wait. its too long and this feeling is killing me.

i dont know what i’ll do if this fears is true, that my precious liltle one has been taken away from me.

i just hope its not real. i just hope its only my imagination. 

i’ll do vaginal scan tomorrow with Dr.N for a confirmation.

hopefully, we’ll be doing just fine.