New demand?

3rd day working, Ummi missed evening pump session & my exercise session. Semua ni gara2 tetiba banyak kerja pulak & kena entertain client yang datang. When everything was almost complete, it was already 4.45pm. So I decided not to pump because I could not afford of Tasneem being cranky & angry for not having enough milk when nursing, like what happened the 1st day of work.

So menahan la rasa bengkak tu sampai punch out. Ambil Tasneem terus offer sebab dah rasa bengkak sangat dah. Budak kecik cute tu mmg tak menolak walaupun baru je lepas menyusu kat rumah bbsitter tu. Pantang kena offer. hehhehe

Macam biasa time maghrib tu Tasneem demand for her feed. Well, not really milk-sucking but more to nyonyot2 aje sambil pejam mata. When I pulled out she will open her eyes and started to suck again. Cheeky Tasneem!!

I thought all when OK tapi dekat pukul 8 tu I wanted to take shower & pray and all of sudden terus dia menangis menjerit. Dah start buat hal dahhh… Offer milk-factory; reject & jerit. Letak dalam buai; jerit. Dukung; jerit. Aiyyoo.

Abi took in-charged and I went for shower & pray. Tasneem; still wailing with mata merah2 sebab mengantuk. Then suddenly I remembered that we have a pacifier in her basket. Cleaned & washed it, terus bagi Tasneem. X sempat nak sterelize pun, not hygienic, I know.

Guess what, sambil2 dia grumbling tu, she nyonyot2 jugak pacifier tu. Alaaah, ummi tak suka la Tasneem hisap pacifier, I told her. Letak dalam buaian, lelap mata dia sambil nyonyot benda tu.Bila tengok dia dah lena sikit, I tried to pull out the pacifier, tapi dia marah. Tak bagi ambil. Eiiii, ummi tak suka lah Tasneem hisap pacifier, I told her again. Uiishh, makin hebat dia nyonyot pacifier tu. Rasa nak nangis je tgk dia nyonyot benda tu. I looked at her and wondering camana lah boleh jadik camni. I never introduced pacifier to her. I tried not to think of the bbsitter sebab nak berprasangka baik. Lagipun I x bekalkan pun pacifier tu, so I believe that mesti ada sebab lain.

With regards to mommies out there, I mean no hard feeling with this post. Its just that I dont like to see my kid(s) to depends on the pacifier. I’d rather offer them my nipps. I have my reasons but to be on the safe side, I will not tell. Tak mahulah timbulkan any controversies and I believe its up to the parents to take care of their children, regardsless of whatever and whichever methods. Ok? peace!!

I just hope Tasneem will forget about the pacifier lepas ni. hehe.