First of all, I survived my 1st day working routine just fine… except having a few eheemm.. tragedies.
1st day
I woke up early, but only to have a bit kelam-kabut while preparing breakfast sebab Tasneem dah bangun and calling for somebody to pick her up. End up sampai office lewat.
I managed to breast-fed Tasneem before sending her off to the bbsitter and at 11am I pumped and got 9oz. Alhamdulillah, dapatlah 3bottles of 3oz each of EBM. Then sambung kerja. Kemas kini apa yang patut and catch-up with colleagues.
at 4.30pm, I pumped for almost 1 hour and got 6oz. Despite my plan for exercise, I opted to pump for Tasneem’s milk. It was almost 5.30pm when I finished pumping and decided to punch out. Tak jadi lah nak exercise. Basuh pump, collect EBM dlm fridge and went down to the office. I got 5 bottles of 3oz EBM. I was not sure how it happened but suddenly 1 of my EBM bottle fell down on the floor and cracked the bottle.
” Aaaahhhhhh, susu aku!! susu aku!! susu aku!!”
Nasib baik lah one of my colleague sempat ambil bottle dlm beg pumping gear and dpt lah selamat kan the rest of the EBM. 2oz was safe. Sedih betul tengok susu bergelimpangan kat lantai. Sedih je masa lap susu atas lantai tu. Eventhough it was only for 1 oz that wasted. Terasa sangat yang EBM ni sangat berharga. 
Terbayang2 dalam kereta camana lah botol EBM tu bleh jatuh. Ambil hubby from his office and terus ke rumah bbsitter. Tasneem was busy chatting with kak yam. Saje I biarkan aje dia borak dulu, baru bagi salam pada Tasneem.
Amazingly terus dia toleh pada ummi dia. I was so happy when she did that. 
She was OK until about 7.30pm when she started to get cranky. I nursed her and she fell asleep while nursing, but immediately woke-up when I put her in her buaian. Despite my attempts to put her back to sleep, still mata dia celik aje then senyum2 pulak.
Lepas solat maghrib, I tried to put her back to sleep again. I offered her my milk factory, she was OK for the 1st 2 mins and started to grumble while sucking after that. Merungut2 then she started to cry. An angry cry. I thought she might be having a colic or wind or upset stomach, so I tuamkan her perut with warm towel. Still x jalan. When I hold her, dia ‘mencari2′, bila latch-on she suck so intense sampai terasa perit and she was pulling my nipps sambil menendang2 marah. Aiiyoo, clearly she was hungry tapi dia nampak macam x puas. I was desperate to put her to sleep and it tensed me to see her wailing and angry. Ummi Tasneem pun nangis sama laaaa. huhu.
Abi took over to handle her and amazing sungguh, terus berhenti nangis and ngadu ntah ape2 dengan abi dia. Aduss tensenn ummi. Sempat la ummi masak and mandi sementara mood Tasneem tgh baik main2 dengan abi dia. At almost 10pm baru dia started to be restless and looked sleepy. 10.30pm baru dia tido and we finally had our dinner. Makan dinner time supper.
And it makes me wonder, adakah Tasneem mengalami nipple confussion?? I decide to check on the 2nd day.
2nd day
She woke up smiling and chatty as usual. Aduhai Tasneem….. malam tadi buat ummi risau aje. All went OK that morning.
At work, I followed my pumping schedule, 10-11am : 6oz, 3-4pm : 6oz. After evening pump, I managed to exercise for 1 hour. Yeayy!! Sangat happy sebab berjaya jugak exercise. I did recumbent bike for 40mins and brisk-walking for 20mins. My strategy to loose the extra weight (I still have about 4 kg to shed) is 1sty to increase my cardio stamina, so that when I’m fitter I can work on weight training to burn more fat & increase muscle tone. My aim to reach my target weight within 3-6 months. This is due to the fact that I dont want to loose weight drastically because I’m afraid it might affect my milk supply. Xpelah, for the time being ummi kenalah tahan telinga bersabar banyak2 dengan komentar2 org yg kata “eh… tak kurus pun lagi…” ataupun “berat ko tak turun eh?” ataupun paling nyampah “apesal baju ko nampak sendat??” Uwwwaaaaaaaaa!! I benci tauuuuuu!! 
Petang tu ambil Tasneem, the bbsitter informed yang she just woke-up and she didnt sleep at all in the morning!! Isy, Tasneem ni buat perangai baru pulak ke?? She was OK lying on her playgym and as usual, demanded her feeding at maghrib time. She nursed for about 45mins. Then she started to get cranky. Ummi Tasneem pun mulalah nerves sebab x tahu nak buat ape kalau dia start jerit2 tu. Panic ok! I thought she was angry with the milk flow so I offered another side but she rejected it.
Nasib baiklah abi dia rileks aje. Bila tengok Tasneem dah start cranky dengan ummi dia, abi took over but she still restless and even bad, refuse to be put down. Menjerit2 sampai hilang2 suara. OMG, tak kan lah dia nak buat hal lagi malam ni. I started to feel depressed when I noticed stains on her pants.
Tasneem poops rupanya. Patutlah dia tak nak baring. My daughter memang penggeli orangnya, kalau lambat sikit kita tukar nappy/diapers after she poops, memang dia nangis. Punya lah panic dengan dia sampaikan we forgot to check her diaper. She cried out loud mase dibaringkan tapi terus senyap masa I bukak her diaper and terus senyum2 angkat2 kaki masa I wipe her bum. Memang sah lah dia mengamuk sebab ummi tak tukar diaper dia. Then abi letak dalam buai, 5mins after terus tido. Aduhai…sorry sangat Tasneem, ummi had panic attack when you cried like that! hehee 
So I guess, the conclusion is that Tasneem is not having a nipple confussion ( I hope I’m not making an early conclusion on this ) and pengajaran untuk kami adalah untuk check her diaper if she refuse to lay down, reject my nipps and cry out loud.
Apaaaalaaaaaaa ummi ni.
