@ 8 weeks

We went for our 1st antenatal check on 8th May. I couldn’t sleep the night before and woke up early that day. I’m scared.

We waited for about 2 hours before seeing Dr.N because she had to see her patient to deliver a baby that morning. Hubby was asleep while waiting, but i just couldn’t. I read newspaper, watched cartoon on the TV. I’m restless.

We did the vaginal scan since we won’t be able to see our baby with the stomach scan. A bit nervous at first but when i saw my baby i just smile and smile and smile and excited. Dr.N also said that my baby is doing just fine, he already has heartbeats meaning that our baby is ok inside. Pity hubby didn’t get to see the tiny heartbeat.

I asked about my absence of nausea, vomiting, superwomen smells etc and she said that i’m lucky not to be getting all those symptoms. She said that not all expecting mothers must have the classical symptoms of pregnancy to be pregnant. Sometimes people with severe vomiting will have to be admitted due to dehydration. And what is more important is that the vomiting, nausea and stuffs are not a guarantee to be certain that the baby is fine. So yeah, I understand her explanation. I should know better with my medical background but i just couldnt help it. Maybe i worry too much.

We went back to hubby’s hometown over the weekend. Later i found out that my mother-in-law didnt suffer from the classical symptoms of pregnancy when she was pregnant. Eventually, I followed her footstep  because both my sis-in-laws had the symptoms. Lucky me!!

So at the moment, i’m all ok. No nausea, no dizziness, no vomiting. I’m hungry all the time, my mood swings are horrible especially when hubby was bz with his work; i feel neglected. I dislike hubby to go outstation. I dont feel like to cook, so we eat out almost every dinner. I’m exhausted all the time. To climb 2 floors up is a tiring activity for me. I have to stop in the middle of the staircase to catch my breath. And my..my…i  gained weight fast!!  I couldnt zipped my kain baju kurung anymore. Thats scary ok. Meaning that maybe soon, i’ll have to start to shop for maternity dress.

Our next appoinment with Dr.N will be in early June.  During that time, i’ll be about 10+ weeks. Hopefully everything will be okay..InsyAllah.

my thoughts .now.

i’m scared. i’m worried. i’m curious.

i dont feel pregnant. i just feel… fat.

i eat a lot. i’m hungry all the times.

apart from that, i’m not having dizziness, nausea, mood swings sometimes. on and off breast tenderness. no stomach cramp. but i’m having white discharge on daily basis, which i already asked Dr.K about it. she said its normal, but nothing to be worried of. as long as the discharge is not brown in clour and smells.

my conversation with my sister had really frightened me more. she insisted me to go for a specialist check-up just to make sure that i’m pregnant, since i’m not having all the classical symptoms of a pregnant laydee..

then i read the pregnancy book about not feeling the pregnancy. here’s the book says: once the feotus stops growing, all the symptoms of pregnancy will eventually stops.

i’m scared.

i dont even feel my breast sore anymore. thats the most important sign to tell that i’m pregnant, still.

i dont feel i’m pregnant.. and i’m scared & worried.

so today, i beg hubby to bring me to specialist tomorrow. not on thursday as planned earlier. i cant wait. its too long and this feeling is killing me.

i dont know what i’ll do if this fears is true, that my precious liltle one has been taken away from me.

i just hope its not real. i just hope its only my imagination. 

i’ll do vaginal scan tomorrow with Dr.N for a confirmation.

hopefully, we’ll be doing just fine.

@6weeks

 From pregnancyguideonline. 

Fetal Development:

My Heart Belongs to You! The first heartbeats have begun! The baby is now an embryo and is about 1/17 of an inch long. Growth is very rapid this week. The umbilical cord develops. The eyes and ears begin to form as well as an opening for the mouth. The heart has begun to pump blood and most of the other organs are well under construction. Buds form on the body that will become the arms and legs. Exciting week! Multiples: Same as for singletons.

Maternal Changes:

This week tends to bring on the nausea. Morning sickness is a constant companion any time of the day. You may be craving certain foods while the very thought of other foods will send you to the porcelain goddess. Because this is a critical time in your baby’s organ development, avoid alcohol, substances, drugs, and treatments (perms, hair coloring, manicures, etc.) that you don’t really need. If you haven’t yet, make your first prenatal appointment with your care provider. Multiples: Morning sickness can be very severe with multiples’ pregnancies. Since your fluid requirements have increased, be sure to drink lots of water to keep hydrated when the vomiting is severe. Contact your care provider if you have any concerns at all.

When and How Do You Tell the World?

You may be so excited that you want to tell the world immediately. Or, you may want to wait and cherish the secret. Some parents worry about miscarriage and prefer not to tell “just in case” and wait until the threat of miscarriage is past. (However, friends and family can be an enormous source of support in the event of a miscarriage, and you may be missing out on this support by not sharing the news.) The bottom line . . . do what feels the most comfortable. Make it a special event whenever you do spill the beans. Our StorkNet readers have shared some of their unique and special ways they’ve shared their great expectations.

Signs of Miscarriage:

Every mom worries about the possibility of miscarrying. If you have any of these signs, contact your caregiver immediately: Bleeding Cramping and/or abdominal pains Passing of grayish or pinkish tissue or blood clots Not every cramp or every drop of blood is a sign of a miscarriage. Many women bleed during pregnancy and go on to have healthy babies. It is an important warning sign, however, and you should notify your caregiver. In the case of multiples, it’s very possible to miscarry one twin and carry the remaining twin safely to term.

Ideas for Dad:

If morning sickness has hit home, there are a few things you can do to help: 1) Certain smells can make Mom queasy - even things like coffee can set off a wave of nausea. Try to keep these things away until the morning sickness abates; 2) encourage Mom to maintain a healthy diet high in protein and carbohydrates and to drink lots of fluids, especially water; 3) set some saltine crackers or pretzels by the bed and encourage her to eat some BEFORE she gets out of bed; 4) understand that she may not feel up to cooking, cleaning and other household chores right now. You can be a big help to her (and baby) by suggesting she rest while you do some of her chores you don’t normally do.

Inspirational Thoughts:

It is the child in man that is the source of his uniqueness and creativeness. ~Eric Hoffer

after the visit

Hubby & i went to see dr.K this morning. We did a second test and again the test came out clearly positive. Hubby was not surprise because he said he’d knew that already but i was quite nervous doing the test & waiting for the result, as if i was afraid that the result will turn out negative. how paranoid of me.

we’ll be seeing dr.K for a 2nd visit in 2 weeks time and she will run a scan test. it’s too early to do the test in week 5.

in the mean time, hopefully everything will be okay. Hopefully, our baby will develop in a good condition. Also, hopefully my body will provide an ample condition to host for my baby for the next 36 weeks.

And i’m willing in all means to protect our precious liltle one.

on me

i wanted to start doing pregnancy notes. i’m planning to jot down the stages, emotionally&physically changes, my feelings of happiness, excitedness, fears, hopes, wishlist. everything.

because know i realize that my life, our life; will never be the same again.

this is the new beginning.

here’s the list:

@5weeks

1. current weight : 60kgs

2.symptoms :

~breast tenderness. i dont feel like wearing a bra. x selesa.

~frequent urination

~bloated stomach

~dizziness in the evening but not frequent

~mood swings.cepat betul rasa nak mengamuk. kejap happy, the next minute i naik angin

~fatigue.naik tangga 2 tingkat pun terasa lelah sungguh.jantung berdegup laju mcm baru lepas lari 100m.        

Hubby and I will be seeing Dr.K tomorrow for our 1st consultation. Already i have lots of questions to ask. Hopefully she will assist me on this.

Well, i dont know either what i felt at the moment is norm, but believe me, i’m quite ambarassed when people started to ask if i’m expecting. terasa segan & malu. dont know why. padahal bukannya buat benda x elok kan? but still, couldnt help but feeling a bit of shy. maybe sebab i think its waaayyyy tooo early to tell the colleagues abt the news. or maybe (mintak dijauhkan lah) because of fear it didnt turn out smoothly as what i’m hoping for. its only 5 weeks, there’s a long way to go ahead.  I have to prepare myself if anything bad happens (mudah2an dijauhkan dari malapetaka..aminn).

please kindly pray for me. many thank you.