Decision

Saya belum bersalin lagi. Masih di sini. Masih bekerja. Seperti biasa.

Appointment dengan doktor pagi tadi, baby dah mencecah 3.5kg di usia 39++ minggu.

Tapi berat saya turun kepada 74.7kg, turun 800g. Jadik lah. haha.

Air ketuban masih ok, uri semakin banyak dot-dot putih di screen yang bermaksud ia semakin matang. Bila doktor tanya pergerakan baby, saya jawab “baby still aktif, cuma x seaktif dulu..”  hahaha, ape punye jawapan lah tu. Sungguh, saya tak rekod pun pergerakan baby dalam 1 hari;  yang mana sepatutnya saya buat sebaik sahaja masuk ke minggu ke 38. Baru hari ni sibuk mencatat dlm jadual yang doktor beri.

Jumaat lepas, terasa contraction setiap 30mins dari pukul 6petang hingga ke saat saya mahu tido, kira2 11malam. Tak tahu nak buat apa, telefon sahabat baik saya di Melaka utk bertanya pendapat. Dia kata, tunggu malam ini macam mana, kalau sakit makin kerap pagi2 esok terus ke hospital. Inform hubby setiap kali ada contraction sambil air mata bergenang2 (saya pun x tahu kenapa terasa nak menangis hahaha), saya kata pada dia jika saya tidak boleh tido malam ni, pagi sesudah subuh kita pulang ke Bangi (kami di Kuala Selangor ketika itu, tanpa kad mengandung, terlupa yang perlu bawa setiap masa sekarang ini). Hubby nampak sedikit risau, terus juga masuk tido bersama saya walaupun selalu dia suka tido lewat. Namun saya tido nyenyak sampai ke pagi. Tiada gangguan contraction.

Sekarang, contraction ada every now and then. Tidak regular. Pendek kata, belum ada tanda2 besar nak bersalin lagi lah. Sungguh, anak ummi ni masih suka suasana dalam perut ummi. Sebelum ini, saya selalu kata pada baby; bila lah anak ummi ni nak keluar jumpa abi, ummi, atuk, wan, nenek, wan2 sedara, atuk2 sedara, makciks & pakciks yang dah tak sabar nak jumpa baby. Kemudian hubby akan tegur buat apa suruh baby keluar awal, biarlah dia kat dalam perut lagi.

Tapi minggu ini, hubby pula yang tanya bila baby nak keluar. Saya kata, abang tanya lah sendiri, saya dah tanya baby tapi dia diam je.. ;)

Pernah berdiskusi dengan hubby tentang option INDUCE labor. Kerana mmg saya sedia maklum, jika baby tidak keluar juga menjelang 1Jan2008, saya tetap akan kena proses induce labor sebab 1. dah terlebih hari, di takuti baby akan menjadi lebih besar yang mana risiko untuk C-Sec akan lebih tinggi.  2. kekurangan air ketuban yang boleh membawa kepada fetal stressed and can cause the fetus to swallow its own stool. And that is very dangerous for the baby.

Tadi kami tanya option itu pada doktor. Kata doktor, sekarang saya dikira fit untuk proses induce. Kandungan sudah mencecah 39++ minggu, uri dah matang, berat baby pun sesuai kalau dia dilahirkan sekarang. Doktor cakap kami boleh induce bila2 masa sahaja sekarang, mahu besok pun boleh.Datang saja ke wad tingkat 2, infrom kaunter yang mahu induce. InsyAllah selamat, katanya.

Cuma sekarang, kami yang kena buat keputusan. Sebahagian dari saya mahu induce minggu ini kerana saya risau jika kami delay untuk tunggu EDD, risiko untuk C-Sec akan menjadi lebih tinggi disebabkan fizikal baby. Seboleh-bolehnya, saya tak mahu C-Sec. Tapi sebahagian lagi kata, tunggu lah dulu sampai Selasa depan (1Jan) . Manalah tahu baby boleh keluar sendiri tak perlu kena paksa. Perihal orang kata sakit induce lebih dari natural proses, saya pilih untuk berfikir; memang menjadi lumrah sakit untuk bersalin ni, induce atau tidak. Ada juga orang suggest, lebih baik ambil epidural jika induce, saya memilih untuk berfikir; itu terpulang kepada individu tersebut. Tidak termaktub dalam buku yang semua orang mesti ambil epidural jika kena induce. Ya bukan?

Hubby kata, cuba tanya emak apa katanya. Jadi saya telefon emak tadi. Emak kata takda salahnya kalau nak induce, yang penting baby dan saya selamat. Kemudian saya cerita dengan emak perihal contraction di Kuala Selangor, emak kata itu dah start lah tanda sakit2 tu, cuba tunggu sampai hari Sabtu ni. Manalah tahu 2-3 hari ni…

Saya harap kata2 emak tu betul. Sempat saya pesan dengan emak doakan saya dapat bersalin normal tanpa induce. Kerana saya ingin mempunyai pengalaman terjaga ditengah2 malam, air ketuban pecah, kejut hubby dan bergegas ke hospital. Ala-ala macam dalam drama tu.. sungguh ironik kan??

Tengoklah, balik nanti kena bincang habis-habisan dengan hubby.

I am here

…still. No, lil’one hasnt check-out yet.

Had an appointment with Dr.F since Dr.N was on leave for a week. I am 75.5kg (gained 0.5kg) and lil’one is at 3.3kg.

To be honest, at this stage, I am a bit “tired” of this pregnancy. But dont get me wrong, its not that I dont like being pregnant or dislike lil’one in my tummy, but I am tired of my own heaviness, the edema-leg, the frequent urination, the backache and the urgh-its-so-hard-to-get-up-from-bed every morning.

Also, I am restless now, when I am at the office, I dont feel comfortable sitting on the chair. No sitting position is comfortable for me nowadays. However, I dont feel like walking too. When I walk, I will feel the sharp pain in the groin area thus, will limit of the activity.

I am tired of the question“eh, belum beranak lagi ke?” or “bila nak bersalin ni?” or “bile due?”  which I received every morning just as I step to the OPD to punch-in. As if, takde soalan lain ke nak tanya. Cuba lah tanya dah makan ke belum, breakfast ape harini or puji aku cantik ke harini.

I am nagging, I know.

Tak baik kan rasa macam ni, komplen macam2. Macam x bersyukur je diberikan peluang untuk merasai nikmat mengandung. 

Astaghfirullahhalazim….

But, I need to get things out of my head. Now I feel better.

And oh, Salam Eidul Adha to you all.

While we’re waiting

We had the weekly check-up with Dr.N last Friday. Lil’one is doing OK, already in ‘drop’ position and now weights at 3.2kg, however there is no sign that lil’one will be making the grand appearance soon. Maybe lil’one like it so much to be safe and warm inside ummi’s belly so that lil’one decided to stay longer.

However, as for ummi, I’m doing far more than OK. I gained 2kg from last week. Am not very happy about it though, because now I weighted at 75kg. Soooo berattt laaaahh. If only I could control my desire to eat and eat and eat nowadays. I’m like a super-eater during this last trimester, I’d be hungry within 3hours interval. Kalau x makan, mula lah rasa heart-burn, pening, rasa nak mengamuk etc. I started to  notice that my appetite is getting bigger right after Aidilfitri, which I was at 7months pregnant. Here’s my eat routine:

8.30am: 2 slices of toast and a cup of orange juice for breakfast.

10am ++ : I started to feel hungry again, normally I eat 3-in-1 nestum or 1 fragrance pear.

12.30pm : Feeling hungry , I’ll have my lunch (nasi campur) at 1pm.

3.00pm : Hungry, normally I take cordial drink at this hours. Ribena or mango cordial drinks.

6.30pm: Hubby & I have our dinner. I dont take rice at this hours (unless I skip rice for lunch).

9.00pm : Pear or fruits for my tummy.

10.30pm : A cup of hot Wyeth Mama Milk.

11pm ++ : Rest for the day

In between the meal time, I constantly drink plain water but it didnt help much to ease the hungry feeling. I dont favor much of biscuits crackers, chochlates and such, so I opted for fruits instead. I cudnt imagine if I am a choc-lover, ntah jadi ape badanku ini nanti. Heehh.

Ayah dropped by at the office last Friday to deliver air selusuh and kain batik for me. Petua orang2 tua, air selusuh boleh membantu memudahkan proses bersalin. I just had a cup of those, nasib baik rasa air mineral biasa, kalu ade rasa ala-ala ubat mmg x ber’minum’ lah air selusuh tu. hheehhe 

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By the by, last week I bought Avent IQ Isis Uno Electric breastpump from babyjaya and Lollipop nursing pillow from Littlewhiz. The 1st ever online purchase I did so far. Mula2 tu rasa hesitate jugak nak beli online. Yelah tak penah buat online purchase pun selama ni. It turn out ok, I received the courier earlier than I expected it. Boleh lah beli online lagi lepas ni..hehhe

Also, we went to Planete Enfants yesterday to buy this completed with this. Initially, my main target was to buy carseat cum babycarrier for now since I think we will be travelling back  and forth Seremban - Bangi - Kuala Selangor after I deliver. So the need of buying  stroller can be delay until next year. In fact I already aimed that particular brand . When the salesperson introduce us the system, hubby immediately fell into it. The price was wayy tooo far from our baby budget and we take quite some to decide on buying that. The most expensive baby tools we bought so far.

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air selusuh

Lil’one, see, ummi and abi loves you so much that we bought you the best in the market for your safety. You better be an angel and listen to what abi and ummi says after this ok because most of your items are much much more expensive than what ummi and abi had. ;)

We’ll be going back to Seremban after Zohor. Teringin nak makan donut emak buat. Yummyyyyy..

We’re getting there

farah@officeI marked 37 weeks of pregnancy this week. We had an appointment with Dr.N earlier this morning. Nothing unusual, normal check-up of baby & I. Blood pressure OK and glucose OK.

I weighted 73.1kg, which I’m not sure wether to be happy or unhappy with it. Because deep in my heart I have the fear of not loosing all the baby-fat after the delivery. Biasalah kan kita orang perempuan ni pasal body/weight ni memang sensitive sikit. On happy note, lil’one weight approximately at 3.15kg. Wow, besar juga anak ummi ni. But I do know that its only a ‘approximate measure’, the actual size might be less or more than the figure given by the machine. Takpe, yang penting anak ummi sihat tubuh badan dan sempurna sifat. :)

Nway, Dr.N informed that lil’one is already in ‘drop’ position and by looking at my placenta which also already mature at stage III, she expected that lil’one will be making the final appearance within 1-2 weeks time. If I’m lucky enough, there are possibility of lil’one to be the New Year’s Baby (remember my EDD is 1st Jan 200 8) but with low percent.

Secretly I was hoping that lil’one will be arriving on 23rd December 2007 as the day is Abi & Ummi’s anniversary date. Our precious lil’bundle of joy would be the most valuable gift given by The Almighty and also lil’one will be the greatest gift for each other on our anniversary. Whatever the date will be, I dont really mind as long as lil’one is healthy. Its only a date after all.

Tetiba rasa macam nervous pulak.

Balik nanti nak kena sambung pack hospital bag.

kaki gajah..

… saya.

kaki ku yang gajah

 

 Currently my main problem is leg edema. Sangat … sangat superb bengkak dan sangat buruks..   :(

Bukan setakat bengkak sahaja, kadang2 disertai dengan kurang deria rasa & bila berjalan rasa sakit berbisa. Paling perit bila nak pergi toilet in the middle of the night.. seksa… mana nak tahan ur*ne  lagi, mana nak tahan perit pijak lantai lagi campur plak dengan mamai. Nasib lah toilet duduk, kalu toilet cangkung, mmg gamaknya saya tersungkur la kat situ. haiiihh..

Dah byk cara saya praktik nak kurangkan edema ni. Sejak pregnant mmg tido sendal kaki dgn 2 biji bantal, rendam kaki dgn air suam, soft massage (even ada yg x suggest), tido mengiring ke kiri.. all done but xde ape perubahan pun. Makin gajah ade lah.

Blame it to the water retention, nothing I can do. Kalau jumpa doc pun, I’ll only get the sympathy look and timeslip/MC; if I requested it. So all in all, sabar aje la jawabnya.

Nah, u all tengok lah kaki gajah saya ni.

ewww..buruks!!